lottery of love

Oh the much anticipated passionate holiday is almost here. I have always been the optimist about Valentine's day. Even if I do not have a boy to shower me with chocolate and candle lit dinners, I simply enjoy the holiday. But this year I have a dilemma I happen to be quite afraid of commitment. I don't know if I'm afraid to get hurt, or if I truly do not want a relationship, but this year, I continue to push away prospective boyfriends. However, since the beginning of the year I have had a small "thing" with (we're gonna call me C) C. Sometimes we have weeks where he waits at my locker and we talk on the phone, and other times we don't speak at all. As shallow as this may come across, I refused to look at him as more than a fling, or a possible (ah-dorable) hookup. I now think i have been repressing feelings for him. Anyway, he basically texted me and said all these amazing things. The things he said we more than even boyfriend had said to me. Then he saw some of my close friends at a bakery and poured out his heart. This whole time I thought he had just seen me as eye candy, or a fling. But he really listened when I talked and knew me. But I guess he is frustrated because I don't look at our relationship that way. But honestly it never dawned on me. But the more i think about the more, I feel I am falling for him I doubt I will get anything from him tomorrow, and I'm not really sure how i feel about that. I mean I didn't tell him I liked him, so he has no reason to. But yet, I know I will feel a bit sad. AH....high school drama MUCH LOVE HAPPY VALENTINE'S DAY

true love

Have you ever thought about the ONE? Well, I do and I have finally found it. I have discovered true love at the ripe age of 17! I am deeply enamored with Juicy Couture. But this is not a surface, superficial love. P&G runs through my veins, it is apart of who I am! As of this week I finally saved up $350 for their plaid sherpa jacket. Sure, the description may scream lumber jack, but no no! This jacket is my obsession. And even the guys have commented about it. Everything about it makes me glow with adoration! Ah...IM IN LOVE! Sadly though, I do not think I can wear it at school anymore. I was 2 inches away today from getting strawberry milk spilled all over it. (PS- its dry clean only and the inside is snow white sherpa) True, being that this is young love, I may have some pretty intense separation anxiety, I think I can pull through. Because as soon as I get home until the time I go to bed, Im gonna be sporting that jacket. God...it was like I was put on this earth to find this jacket! THANK YOU P&G! I am forever indebted to you for introducing us! Well that pretty much raps up my love story....I apologize if its a little sappy, but what can I say...I <3> MUCH LOVE PEACE

that moment of bliss

Do you ever hit that time in your life where everything just seems to fit so perfectly? I am in a daze of total contentment and pure excitment for the future! I am usually one who prides themselves on living in the moment and not fantasizing about what is to come or what is in the past, but I cannot even help it! Here is a list of things I think have put my in this fabulous bubble

• I am going to NYC for an elite fashion program for FOUR WEEKS!
• My best friend who lives in LA (miles away from me) is going to be going to be at FIT the EXACT same time as me! (and I get to stay with her at her rented upper west side apartment on the weekends!!!)
• I just purchased a Juicy Couture Plaid Sherpa Jacket (something I've been saving up for, for forever
• Winter Formal was last weekend and I was voted BEST DRESSED!!!!
• I am going to Boston in 2 weeks!!!!!!!
• I went to a small high school 9th and 10th grade and LOVE the bigger school! SO much more social activity! ABSOLUTELY loving it
• Dance team is ending, which although I'm very sad, Lacrosse is starting now and its only 3 days a week, while dance was 5!
• My room is clean and I have been able to live stress-free days
• Life in general is just at its high...point blank

These little things may seem trivial and unimportant, but to me they create the relm of total perfection. But I better end this before I jinx myself! lol

MUCH LOVE

PEACE

I HAVE AH-MAZING NEWS! I got into the summer fashion program I wanted!! They only allow about 20 students and I was chosen!!!!! Imagine this: 4 fabulous weeks spent at runways shows and intense fashion classes in NEW YORK CITY! I cannot imagine my time better spent! I am enthralled. To celebrate, some friends and I went out for sushi and green tea ice cream. This is what I have been waiting for. Every moment of my life is now filled of thoughts for the summer. AHHHHH!!!!! i am SO stoked. WATCH OUT NYC, A LIL FASHIONISTA'S COMING YOUR WAY! Ah, love you all! PEACE

So I have had a slight addiction to Ginger and Java. I am absolutely in love with their cute cocktail dresses. They have spunk and SO much color!! If you wear Ginger and Java in a room of bland colors and conservative dress, you will blow people away. Now for about a year or so I have had my eye on their yellow "Elizabeth" cocktail dress. Its lustrous silk satin is fully lined and has a jeweled star at the center of the bust with draping sash underneath. It is strapless and ruches at the bust. Now it may be on last season's rack, but when it comes to this dress, time is standing still! I have a formal affair I have to attend with the fam, and think this is the perfect shocker for the event. I ah-dore this wardrobe nessessity. If you wanna check it out visit and let me know what you think: http://www.bluefly.com/pages/products/detail.jsp?PRODUCT%3C%3Eprd_id=2015050851&FOLDER%3C%3Efolder_id=1215&N=933&Ne=500000&Nu=Product+ID&Ntk=all&Ntt=ginger+and+java&Ntx=mode+matchallpartial#

savy spring style

So it may only be January, but spring trends are beginning their debut. It looks to me like we are going to see a lot of romantic vintage. Of course we will have the pastels, and light spring colors, but who doesn't expect that? Where shorts are concerned, new and old trends are sprouting up. I am sad to say we may seen bermuda's trying to come back onto the scene. Luckily, the attempt Jessica Simpson made to bring micro mini jean shorts failed miserably. So atleast we will be free of one right? Well my good news is we will be seeing some new, hot styles as well. Its all about sophisticated AND short. It has been hard to combine the two but some incredible fashionistas have done it! Cute tweed and canvas shorts are loose and funky Belts also seem to be climbing the charts, literally! If you want to get ahead of the game, match a wide strap-belt with a dress or X-long tank or tee. Simply yet tres chic! For me, I take what information is given to me and create my own style. If you want any advice at all, find some cute trends you like and work it into your style. Its impossible to pull off items that are not you. You must own your look! Don't be a fad drone...PA-LEASE! ha ha here is what I'm going for this spring.

• long necklaces short shorts
• romantic vintage, lace and pastels
• exotic pattern
• chunky bangles, espadrilles, cork wedges (sorry no flats for me, being 5' 1'', i gotta work with what I got)
• tweed bottoms, cashmere, soft cotton (C&C) tops

This is just my outline. I'm going for the 3 S's: soft, sophisticated, sexy.

tell me what you are going for this spring!!!

PEACE!

So as high school progresses, I am continually burdened with questions. Questions like "what school do you want to go to," or "what do you wanna study" or "what do you want to major in". And of course the list goes on. I love thinking of the future and imagining where I could contribute my talents and opinions. Ever since I was little, I have had a passion for writing.(I will be honest that this blog does not portray my best ability.) It came easily to me and I have alway enjoyed it. As I grew older, my teachers recognized my flare for writing and encouraged me to keep with it. Last year I had a poem published and was nominated for Poet of the Year by "The international Poets Society." It was my sophomore year that I decided I wanted to become a broadcast journalist. I love acting and writing, and broadcast journalism is sort of a cross between the two. However, also beginning my sophomore year, i realized that I had a chic obsession. I was addicted to fashion. Now, for alcoholics there are AA meetings, but when it comes to being a fashion addict...there's no way out! Some may call this intense materialism, but fashion is an art form and I'm into the style, the cut, and the design of different items. I look fashion as if it were an art piece and the world was a museum. I could spend hours...well I'm getting off topic. ANYWAY, today I was looking at creative writing/journalism summer college programs. Sadly though, I kept getting off task and researching fashion programs. It was while I was looking at one that it hit me. Going to a fashion program could help to describe AND understand fashion better. With this knowledge i could write about fashion. I tell ya, sometimes this girl has strokes of genius. So, ladies and gentlemen I present you with my future: I am aspiring to become a fashion columnist!!!!!!!!!!!!! Thank you thank you, please hold the applause! ha ha....so I feel a have a reason to do good in school now. I am SO excited and cannot wait for this summer to begin!! For all you dreamers who have this feeling they are meant for something and only thay something....I suggest starting off with something that interests you and see where it leads you!!! ha ha worked for me. Well, I have loved this look on life, but I must get back to my columnist project (AP LANG) which PS, ties in perfectly with my life plan. (most peole are annotating columns about sports, news, and politics, but I got John Fairchild! He writes drag as a hungarian countess in column in the back of every issue of W. I do encourage you to check it out! MUCH LOVE PEACE